Sorry I haven’t posted in a while, but… at Film, Gadgets, and Geekdom

Yeah, I do admit that I haven’t posted in a while because I’ve finally been accepted as a Luftwaffe officer in the High Command of the Axis Forces of World War II Online. Sadly, I haven’t been able to get things settled so I actually have my ingame rank and HC tools, but they are coming I’m told. The CO of the Luftwaffe just happened across my sig and didn’t realize I was in the LW HC. Thankfully, I gave him the info he wanted and told me he was going to fix it. Yay!! Soon I will be able to do all the bureaucratic crap that comes with being an HC officer.

The real reason I’m updating is much, much more serious however. It turns out that my preconceived notions about my relationship with Kat were quite true. It turns out that she DID cheat on me and apparently, extensively. I don’t need to tell any of you about that, now do I? Yeah, pretty much EVERYONE knows that Kat cheated on me except the person who should know… ME!! That’s the real reason I’m not in bed trying to get some sleep. I was already in bed once tonight trying to sleep, but I just couldn’t stop thinking about how misled I was. How she told me I was too jealous and controlling, but it turns out that I wasn’t jealous and controlling enough. You which one bothers me the most? The fact she fucked around with Joey while we were together. That makes me REALLY suspicious about who else I know she fucked. I am so damn torn in wanting to know and being too scared to know. I’m sure I want to know, but is it worth it? Probably. I suppose the way I look at it is I should know so I can start to put it behind me and look at Kat as a friend, regardless of what she did to me. Am I pissed about it? Hell yeah I am. If anyone knows any info they can pass on to me on this subject, I would like to know. The whole “protecting” me thing just pisses me off and I REALLY hate it. I would rather know and get pissed than not know at all. Why you ask? Well mostly because I hate the idea of other people knowing more about me than I do. I think I’m gonna head to bed… again. I love you guys, stay cool. I plan on staying up to date even with the new HC stuff.

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zanthina 2 years ago 1 point
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Hey baby,

I'm sorry that you're stressing about the stuff with Kat. I would too, in your position, believe me. If you think it would be better for you to know it all, I would just call her. Sure it will be weird at first but you'll get your questions answered. She's got no reason to hide anything from you anymore. I had to do something like this once, and it's kind of like taking off a band-aid, it hurts like hell in the moment but then you can start getting over it. I'll help any way I can.
It's pretty damned cool that you are an officer in the High Command. You seem to really enjoy it, and it looks as though you need something like that to take your mind off some other bullshit.

Good luck, I'll help you any way you need me to.

Lexy

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zanthina 2 years ago 1 point
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I forgot something. I wanted to tell you that the reason I never brought up the cheating thing with Kat is that I thought you probably knew. And, if you already knew, and I brought it up to tell you, it would just look like I was trying to say bad stuff about her. That would make me look like a bitch. When J.E. told me that you didn't know about the friend thing, I struggled with whether or not to tell you for a while. It's hard to not protect someone you love.
It used to make me so mad when you would talk about how it was your fault that the relationship between you and Kat went south. How you did this and that to her and how great she was. I wanted to scream when I heard things like that. I just thought that she had you so convinced it was your fault that you couldn't see it another way. I never thought you didn't know. I'm sorry love.

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anonymous 2 years ago 1 point
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Congratulations on becoming the new Luftwaffe officer in the High Command of the Axis Forces of World War II Online. Anyways, like Zan was saying, it is like a band-aid... things get better with time and besides you have a hell of a wonderful girl looking out for your ass!

So, sit back, relax, pop open a beer, watch some strange television show (I would recomment Monty Python but I am unsure if that floats your boat or not) kill some aliens or destroy the red baron online but know-wait, UNDERSTAND, that whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and that some yuppie slutty bitch that did something nasty to you is no longer holding sway to your person.

Be EXTREMELY happy with the life you currently have and with your dearest Zan.

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toedancr05 2 years ago 1 point
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if i had known, i would have sang like a canary! the one and only thing i would never be able to forget would be a S.O. cheating on me. never. forgive, yeah, but forget? no way.

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baykin 2 years ago 1 point
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I will kill them all.

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themoogaman 2 years ago 1 point
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Whooooo is this?

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anonymous 2 years ago 1 point
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A person who owes Zan a bunch of lunches, and generally likes to say weird stuff on others blogs with strange subject titles.

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