Ode to Drama

Published
by
Anthony Thompson
on September 16, 2007
in Bitching
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I FUCKING HATE DRAMA!!!  There has been so much god damned drama in the past week… I am so tired of it.  All this shit going on.  Most other people think that it doesn’t involve me.  Well.  It does.  I live here too.  I have to listen to people either slam doors, kick shit around, be a complete bitch or asshole either to me or someone else, or any combination thereof.  Frankly, I’m tired of it.  I went through a very severe and difficult bit of drama a couple of months before moving into this house.  I don’t want any of this crap anymore.  I’m not really at liberty to talk about any of this, mostly because I don’t feel like talking about it.  Let us just suffice to say that I really am tired of living in a house where I am looked over because of all the shit going on between people.  Yeah, I know, it sounds rather selfish, but you must realize that I hardly ever get to see anyone I’m living with.  I moved in with all of these people because they were my friends.  Now, with my class schedule and working, I get home at 7pm, which apparently is let’s-go-out-and-get-drunk time.  I’m serious, like every night, half this house comes stumbling home drunk from the bar… after I’ve gone to bed.  That is probably an exaggeration, but still, it’s a lot.  I never say anything to people because I don’t want their frustration with what’s been going on to be directed at me.  So, anyway, I get home at seven and the house is (generally) empty except for the two other people who get up and go to work early in the morning.  This is my whole damn week.  Then Friday rolls around and everyone either is at work or out doing something else.  So, I’m stuck at home, not really doing anything, watching TV, playing video games, et cetera until I get tired and go to bed.  It wasn’t so bad until all this fucking drama started up.  It still wasn’t bad when one couple broke up and they kinda kept it under wraps.  Then the other couple broke up and then there was some brief crisscrossing.  Even after that was over, it made for a rather stressful and unhappy house.  I argue that it still does.  Then compound this with the fact that Lexy and I are getting married in a shade under three weeks.  Yeah.  Stress.  It sucks a huge cock.  I sit here and try to tell myself, “This isn’t any of your business.”  This has kind of been my mantra for several days now, but its a failed mantra.  Every time I tell myself that it isn’t my business, my own brain counters with, “You have to live with these people.”  Personally, I think my brain a rather smart fellow who knows what he’s talking about.  So, when he comes up with a good point like that, I naturally agree with him.

Now, you could definitely argue that I could just stay out of all of this shit and just be all Zen about it.  There is a problem with that.  I’m the kind of person who cares about his friends.  Not that I’m saying that other people don’t.  No, what I’m saying is that I like giving little nuggets of advice to people.  Unfortunately my advice nugget warehouse hasn’t had that many withdrawals, but that’s another deal entirely that I have already bitched about.

I have turned out to be a rather observant person over these last few months.  I have made certain conclusions from the thin evidence that I was given that have turned out to not only be true, but really true.  I’m talking dead on educated guesses here.  I have missed a couple of things, but there are good explanations for those that I will not go into in order to protect the *ahem* innocent.

*Sigh*  I wish my life worked out so I could go to Independence on Wednesday or Thursday and get some Buffalo Wild Wings and a movie.

I really do think this whole moving into a house with five other people was possibly the worst decision we’ve made.  I hate moving.  Now it appears that with all the shit recently, we get to move again in a year.  I hate this shit.  So fucking much.  If I’d stuck with Computer Engineering, I never would have been in this situation.  That one decision.  Such an idiot I am.

What have I done?

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    It hurts my feelings more than I'd like to admit that you feel like moving in with all of us was possibly the worst decision you ever made. I know I have been a big part of all the drama and I know it has been very stressful, not only for you, but for every single person in this house. However, even given all the recent drama, I still feel like it was totally worth it. I know I have had a great time living here with everyone, you included. I feel like we have all already become better friends and we all seem to have a great time together. I am sorry you feel like we all just get up and leave when you come home. That is definitely not the case. No one is thinking "Oh man Tony's home, lets all leave!" Certain people's schedules just work differently than yours, Lexy's and Dave's. I obviously work overnights, so on my days off I stay up anyway, and going out just happens to be one of the ways I like to do that. I also think that everyone going out so much is really at a peak only because we all just moved and we are all becoming betters friends, so we go out together. I can only speak for myself, but me going out has nothing to do with trying to leave the house or only going out when certain people come home. It just happens to be the way my schedule works. I am also sorry for all the drama because, like I said, I know I have been a big part of it. I think the kinks are just being worked out though. Things will get better, we are all still adjusting, although you have to admit, a certain amount of drama just comes with having so many people in one house. As far as I am concerned, any drama related to recent events in our house is over. I think the worst has happened and it will get better. Just give it time. Remember, we are all your friends and we care about you and love you and there is a reason we all moved in with you. :)
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    It's true. If you had stuck with computer engineering your life would probably be totally different. And so would mine.
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    I know coming from me--a bit younger and all the way over in Montana, no less--might sound a bit ungenuine, but everyone second-guesses the paths they have taken every once in a while. It's really easy to say that the problems we have now could have been fixed by a different decision "back then."
    But it's also really easy to look at your decisions in ye olde past and see how they would have affected the positive aspects of your life. How much would you want -those- to change? Because they would, too.

    Love and kisses
 

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